Daily Struggle

This is what it is everyday. A struggle to keep afloat. Physically I need all the strength - cook, clean, send kid to childcare, work, pick up kid, clean and cook again for tomorrow. 

In between spending time with my other kids. They are going through so much - exams over, results in. They did well considering the situation their parents are going through. Another is going through O levels. She shined in her pre-lims, Hopefully, she will shine in the real thing too, by God's grace.

In between the in-betweens, reading confusing text messages from him. The last was "Go. Get lost" . Hmm.  Shouldn't be reading too much into his text messages. He is angry. He is mad. He is wondering what to do since I'm not giving him the usual responses anymore. I need the emotional strength here. I do not want to cave in to his pleas or threats. Though I miss him,duhduhduh, hard to not miss the good side of him.

Let go. Let go. Let go. I should let go. Slowly but surely.