By God's grace, I finally got a job!
It doesn't pay as much as I expected though. I should be thankful. I am. At least this firm's giving me a chance since I've been out of the circle for a decade and I'm starting from scratch again. I start Monday.
My biggest worry though is my 3-year-old. He is still emotionally unstable, crying everyday when I send him to childcare. It breaks my heart but what can I do, but just show him that I love him and comfort him as much as I can. He just have to get used to the routine.
Meanwhile, my soon-to-be ex-husband has shown his softer side, trying to get me back for the kids' sake BUT on his terms. Duh. He sent me mushy song lyrics. Texted me endlessly, trying to get me to "see the light". On some days, out of despeartion, he would text insults, some of which are so vile, I don't even read them before deleting.
He still thinks he can solve everything himself. He still thinks he knows everything. He still thinks the wife has no right to question the husband as long as she has a roof over her head (hey, in which case, I don't even have) and gives her money.
He misses me, I know. He SHOULD. I m deeply missable. However, he is the same person who was mean to me, enough to make me leave. The only reason that he can miss me is because he is choosing, everyday, not to be with me. He knows darn well what it takes and he chose not to do it.
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Congrats on the job. Me poor little boy! That he has to be subjected to such misery - how much the parents have erred or rather the father???
ReplyDeleteAnd poor big boy! Still hasn't "seen the light". Still the MCP.
Remember this hon. TOUGH TIMES NEVER LAST, BUT TOUGH PEOPLE DO..
May Allah bless you and the kids and the big boy too....
Ameen.
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